Deflower: 2010

2010 is a year with full of challenges.

As after i graduated from high school, then national service, driving lessons, college life, part time and etc.

though have been depressed a lot but now, i'm okay :)

and thanks to god as he gave me a lot of challenges so that i have grown up and been a better person.

one day before leaving the national service programme.

to be honest i'm still missing every moment of that even until now.

i miss everything and feel like going back again.

because of this, here i'd like to thank government for the FIRST TIME because of giving me an opportunity to take part this programme.

a photo taken during chinese new year.

though my national programme had not ended yet but i missed my family so much so i decided to come back for few days.

see, my skin turned super duper dark as there was a BIG sun LOL

taken 2 days before leaving the programme.

after taking this picture, there was a big and serious incident happened to me and i almost couldnt leave the programme and got punished.

i dont want to talk about this as that was a bad experience and, awkward. LOL

took this picture after straightening my hair :)

and my skin turned back to fair, how fast :P

i still remember which i had no guts to hang out with friends because i was "black" lol.

stupid picture ^^;;;;

when my skin was 100% fair LOL, i had my 1st outing of 2010 with Kherli.

She's a makeup artist so this makeup was done by her :)

we always make some ghost faces when we have outing XD

took this picture on a memorable day.

that day, I was going to meet my eldest brother which we had not been met for years.

when i 1st saw him, i didnt even recognise him because he changed a lot and i was too shy to talk to him lol.

but now we are okay, so is my family :)

i hope he would keep his promise as he wants to be a better person.

had a crazy moment during this purikura session XD

a picture of 1st day of college life, with a new hat bought by my eldest brother ^^

by looking at this picture it lets me think of a quote from Eminem: The truth is you don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. Life is a crazy life, and nothing is guaranteed.

yes, it's true.

i wouldnt know that i would get a lot of stressed, depression, self-harming, and even tried to attempt suicide just because of the course i've taken.

i thought i was going to like accounting FOREVER as i always scored high marks during high school life.

it's true.

Life is unpredictable and we can't predict the future.

and here i would like to tell those who don't know anything yet:

i'm going to withdraw from college after final exam.

So now i will do my best for the last time.

after that, i will take a makeup artist course.

during the 1st sem of my college life, i joined Music Society and was learning guitar.

but then i withdrew from it as i couldnt cope with my studies.

but i would continue learning it in a couple of years maybe.

here i want to say sorry to my family as i wasted their money to get a guitar :(

but it doesn't mean that i'm giving up.

took this picture before going to a japanese restaurant to celebrate my birthday ^^

celebrated my 18th birthday with my family. :)

unfortunately my elder brother was absent because he had to work.

I CAN'T BE WITHOUT POSTING THIS PICTURE XDDDD

i wore the wig from my bff and i looked like a korean girl XD

didn't I? xD

dyed my hair for the 1st time!! ^^

and wore formal outfit for the 1st time >_>

looked like a 20+-year-old lady URGH.

went for an outing again with kherli :)

ghost face again XD

finished my 1st sem and had a sem break lol.

1st outing was done by going to book fair with my old friends ^^

next, lets see what i did during the sem break xP :

FIRST Nagoya Kei, i looked awesome here XD

FIRST Decora style here. I dont think i would try this style again as it's TOO CUTE for me LOL.

Gyaru Doll. My favourite :) P/S: i was wearing a wig lol.

Made a fansign for niichan who has been helping me alot :)

She's my NIECE. never misunderstand again. I DON'T HAVE any younger sister LOL.

another favourite: Street Visual

A picture for jerks xD

Gothic Lolita :)

FAT ASS >_>

A sign to warn the fakers.

wanted to be a scene kid but failed XD

so this was gyaru visual :P

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when came to the 2nd sem, my life was even awful......LOL