我還有好多話想對你說

It's weird that everything can change just in a blink of an eye.

People leave.

You gave everything that all my ex-es failed to give.
You fulfilled my emptiness.
You fixed me.

I thought you were the right person for me.
I thought you meant everything you said.
I thought we could make it last.

EVERYTHING was just what I thought.
EVERYTHING you said turned into lies.

But it’s okay, I knew it.
Who the fuck would ever fall in love with me?
From the day you confessed to me, I already knew it.
I was just expected too much.
Thanks to you, I’m fucked up. I’m broken. Again.

我裝灑脫

我沒有挽留

就這麼走了

就這麼還你自由了

誰知道我有多麼的不捨？

我還有好多話想對你說。。。

Can you tell me one thing? 

How did you do it? 

How did you move on? 

How did you forget about everything we had? 

How did you manage to erase all those memories from your mind? 

Most importantly, how could you want to? 

Please tell me, 'cause I just can't.

Remember when we used to talk everyday? 

Remember when we would stay up late at night talking about the randomest things? 

Remember when we used to fall asleep on the phone and argue about who should go to sleep first? 

It sucks knowing that we can't do all that anymore. 

Yeah, we used to talk everyday but now we don't talk at all.

Everyone asks me to let you go but I just can't.
How am I supposed to forget when there are so much to remember?

When I open my eyes from waking up, my first thought is you.
And my last thought is still you.

I can't stop thinking about you just like I always do.

I miss you.

I miss your morning texts.

I miss when you called me "babe" or "dear".

I miss you being around with me whenever I'm down. Or even I'm happy.

I miss your everything.

and now you're just gone like that...

I wish we remained as friends in the first place.

Even though I would be still liking you,

at least we were still friends and my stomach still got butterflies everytime I heard of you or receive your texts.

And now we are even worse than strangers...

Everyone changes, I get that. 

But you don't have to pretend that I never existed.

I gave you my all and you gave nothing back. 

Now I'm empty inside and you don't even care to see me cry.

Why did you do this to me? 

I thought you meant everything you said. 

I thought you wouldn't leave.

You lied to me.

You promised you would never leave me alone...

I still remember your words....

你說我會找到一個更愛我的男生

可是我再也不想去像愛你那樣的愛別人了